by Brigette Mashile, founder of Roka Roko
Last night, as I am yet again worrying instead of sleeping as per ‘normal human behavior’, I started scolding myself for worrying so much. And in turn helping the anxiety exist within me… and possibly assisting hypertension to revel! It is midnight or just after midnight, and yes as per ‘Brigette normal behavior’, I am awake. I am in bed counting all the orders I have for this week; and the how much it will cost to make them and whether I have all those deposits, etc. In my process of worry a voice says ‘worry about what you do have, and not what you do not have.’
Ain’t that the truth! How many times do you worry from a place of lack? All our worries are based on the fact that we think we don’t have enough or we are not enough. We worry because we believe we will not make it, something will disturb us and we shall fail. And indeed this happens and we act surprised…really Lucy? I plan to run the next morning every night I sleep, then count all the things that could happen to me while I am on the run…in this country these things range from kidnap, to well more kidnap! Then I make myself fear all of these ‘imaginary things’ and boom NO RUN…again…day 100567!
But, what do I have? For the run to be a success? I have a phone with enough data and an app to instantly record any kind of crime against me; I have a choice of roads which are human infested during the day but quiet enough for a run. I have the security guards at the gate I exit every time. I have God. And, you wont believe this…I have a gym membership! So I could actually do this run in the secure and air conditioned area I pay for each month! Sigh.
Feeling not good enough is a deep issue I have carried with me all my life. It is not true of course. I have come to discover this after turning 25, but it creates so many unnecessary experiences. I also do think that the fact that I have had to do many things that my own parents never had to do, added to not feeling good enough. Being teased for something as simple as my deep voice in a high school far from home, and speaking a foreign language while at it, definitely made me question myself. I made it but the triggers are always there.
So, I need to worry about what I do have actually… acknowledge my power right now! Just enough for me to realize I can and I will. Just make sure you don’t go into the overwhelming side when you do this… then you start worrying about the magnitude of your possible success! LOL. This job, of seeing your capability is not just physical…no, no, it is most definitely emotional and most importantly, spiritual. It’s on a higher level. It’s close to God lets say. Because you have to realize you are gifted, hence you being on such a journey. And your gift may be bigger than you know.
So I need to do 9 items by Saturday this week, on my own. 5 of these are orders I came up with last night during my creative hour session! So it will be a beautiful week. I have most of the fabrics, the machines, the space, electricity, a car to get me there, food to eat, 5 days to do this and an able body to run this all. Yes, anything is possible, anything can happen to disturb this week’s targets. But guess what, anything can also happen to accelerate these projects to even greater success. I choose to hold on to this kind of worry!
Brigette Mashile is the founder and creative force behind Roka Roko, a custom fashion design business based in Johannesburg, South Africa. The company passionately delivers quality tailored and trendy fashion to make their customers happy, and specializes in styling women by creating unusual combinations with fabric, culture and style. Brigette has a Bachelor of Commerce degree from the University of Witwatersrand and a Fashion Diploma from Studio5 School of Fashion. She’s a former fashion buyer for a major retailer in South Africa, and an international direct selling company. She’s been passionate about fashion since the age of 10 and gained invaluable experience in the fashion world running informal fashion creation businesses until the day her own Roka Roko brand was born. Find out more by visiting the Roka Roko website www.rokaroko.co.za
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